I have decided to create a letter for myself to read in the future to tell myself how I am right now, what my dreams are, what I am doing and how I am feeling in the present time. I feel like I can leave it be for 6-12 months and see how I have changed or if I haven't. I think this is an amazing idea.
After desperately trying to find any source of inspiration (and failing watching multiple videos on YouTube on how to create a paper crane.. miserably failing but having a laugh at my terrible paper skills) I decided to inspire my future self. Now this is probably a good old mess and all over the place but this just entered my mind and I am so set on doing this. I have decided that in every 6 months I will read it. So, now that I am writing my letter today (21st March, 2013) I will open it once again on the 21st of September, 2013! I think 6 months is a decent time for change to evolve. I cross my fingers that I will have changed, people around me will motivate me and inspire me more, I hope that I'm happy.
I'm not going to show you what I am going to write because the past year has been the hardest year of my life but also the best (as leaving school and becoming my own person.. kind of) and I would like to keep some things private. I will write good things such as my 18th birthday, future plans, what I want to do and I will most definitely write about my blog and YouTube! The bad things will include how I feel about my extremely heart-wrenching breakup with my boyfriend of two years in 2011, my anxiety, my depression and so on. The bad topics are extremely hard for me to talk about but I hope I find the courage to be able to write about going through hard times and to say I've come out the other side of it all, but right now I'm still trudging through the dark, foggy and cold area right in the middle.
I'll say a couple things about it though; it's hard (extremely hard) and you have to fight for your happiness and also that you really cannot let it get to you otherwise you will severely crumble and trust me.. I've been there and done that.
I'm really sorry there hasn't been any beauty posts as of late, I'm just feeling really in the need to talk to someone about things. Even though none of you talk back, it's still nice to type it all out. I know I am not the only one in the entire world that is going through hard times.
Au Revoir!
xxxx
(P.S I have already taken photos for my next beauty review.. look out for it in the next two days!)
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